The week my body did whatever it wanted. and won.
fast food, my period, and my lowest weight in months
183.9
I don’t fully know how to explain this week.
I was in my luteal phase heading into my period, which for me is the week where everything just stops. The motivation, the posting, the cooking, the caring. It all goes quiet and I go into something that feels less like self-care and more like hibernation. I barely posted. I had fast food more than once. I went to the gym one time. I had sour cream on my taco meat instead of Greek yogurt because I don’t like Greek yogurt and I’m done pretending I might.
And then Saturday morning I stepped on the scale and it said 183.9.
I genuinely stood there for a second like it had personally offended me with good news.
Watch here:
the thing about your period and the scale
Here’s what I’ve been learning, slowly, about how my cycle actually moves through my body.
The week before my period is when I feel the worst. Hungrier. Puffier. More tired. Less motivated. The scale usually creeps up or just sits there making no promises. I used to think that meant I was doing something wrong. Now I know it’s just luteal phase doing what luteal phase does -- my body is holding water, my cravings are louder, my energy is lower, and none of that means anything is broken.
And then my period actually starts. And something releases.
This week I woke up one morning and the headache was gone. The congestion was gone. The heaviness I’d been carrying around all week just lifted. My brain came back online. And the scale, which had been sitting in the 185s and 186s, dropped to 183.9.
“It makes no sense until you understand that it makes complete sense. Your body was holding on to something. And then it let go.”
I’ve said this before and I’ll keep saying it: tracking your cycle alongside your GLP-1 journey is not optional information. It is the information. I wrote an entire deep dive on this -- The Deep Dive: How to Use Your Cycle to Maximize Your GLP-1 Results -- and it’s in the paid vault. You can get access for $3 a month.
consistency during the week you have nothing left
I took both of my injections this week. That’s it. That’s the one thing I did right.
I didn’t want to take the Wednesday one. I felt awful. Congested, headachy, tired in a way that felt like it started in my bones. But I took it anyway because the one thing I’ve learned after three years on this medication is that skipping when it’s hard is how you end up blaming the medication for things that were actually about consistency.
I’m not sharing that to be impressive. I’m sharing it because I think we talk a lot about showing up when you feel good and not enough about what it looks like to show up when you feel like garbage. It doesn’t look like a workout and a perfect meal. Sometimes it looks like doing your injection and then heading straight to the couch at 7:40pm before you go to sleep.
That counts. It all counts.
Jude
This week my son got his ADHD diagnosis confirmed.
I already knew. You kind of always know. But there’s something about hearing a doctor say it out loud that makes it real in a different way. We’re looking into behavioral play therapy. We bribed him with Kids Empire to get through the week. He ended Friday with nine out of eleven stars.
I don’t talk about this part of my life enough on here. Being a mom to a kid who needs more and being a teacher to 28 other kids every day and also trying to take care of your own body is a specific kind of a lot. I’m figuring it out the same way I’m figuring out everything else -- one week at a time, imperfectly, without a plan that accounts for all of it.
We also got the keys to the new apartment this week. Nothing is moved. But we have keys and that felt like something.
where I’m landing
183.9 is my lowest weight in a really long time. And it happened on a week where I ate fast food, skipped the gym four days out of five, and barely held it together.
I don’t think that’s an accident. I think it’s what three years of consistency looks like when it finally shows up on a random Friday morning. The work doesn’t disappear just because the scale isn’t reflecting it yet. It’s in there. It compounds. And then one day it just appears.
If you’re in the week where nothing is happening, I need you to know that something is happening.
REMINDER: Back to Day One starts May 1st. It’s a 30 day GLP-1 reset and you can join for $3 a month -- that’s the monthly rate, no commitment, cancel whenever you want. If you’ve been waiting for a reason to start over without shame, this is it.
The full vlog is on YouTube if you want to see the whole messy week play out.
xo
nyk
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