184.6 and I think I finally figured it out...
stress, summer, and the concept that changed how I see everything.
hey bestiie. 👋
184.6
okay soooo…
all school year my weight was jumping up to 187... coming back down... going back up... and I genuinely could not figure out why.
same medication. same food. same me.
and then school ended.
and it just... stopped doing that.
This week I never even saw 186. it just sat there. steady. going down slowly like it’s supposed to.
the only thing that changed was stress.
and I don’t think I fully understood until right now how much that actually matters. It’s science. and I’m going to talk about it below because it changed how I see everything.
okay here’s your week. 👇
what I wrote this week
I hit a big milestone this week here on Substack. Now you’ll see that super cool orange checkmark next to my name.
our first ever cohort just wrapped and this is the post I sent them on the final day. I’m sharing it publicly so you can see what happened inside. it’s a good one.
when should you actually inject? I rebuilt this whole lesson from scratch.
95 pounds. lung cancer. a lifetime of cycles. and the moment she finally broke one. go read this one.
What I filmed this week
I crashed out in this week’s vlog ngl 😠I tracked my food every single day, pulled up the full spreadsheet on camera, and realized I might have been under-eating all school year without even knowing it. I also give you a tour of the apartment gym.
and I posted a reel about allostatic load and revenge bedtime procrastination this week... if you feel like you’re doing everything right and nothing is moving, or if you stay up way too late even when you’re exhausted... that reel was made for you.
on the paid side
Monday’s paid post was my month three gym update.
I missed sessions. I switched gyms. I stopped pretending I was going to drive 35 minutes to work out when my apartment gym has literally everything I need.
and then I said something about myself that I genuinely did not see coming.
go read it if you’re in there.
not in there yet? that’s what Mondays look like on the inside.
What I’m learning rn 👇
I started a sleep and stress management certification a little while ago and one concept has been living in my head ever since.
It’s called allostatic load.
Think of your body like a cup. Every stressor adds to it. Work. Bad sleep. A hard week emotionally. Even the physical stress of working out. When the cup gets too full your body shifts into survival mode.
And in survival mode? It holds on.
Not because you’re doing something wrong. Because your nervous system doesn’t feel like it’s safe enough to let go yet.
This is why two people can be on the same medication, eating the same things, and get completely different results. One cup is full. The other one isn’t.
One thing you can try this week: at the end of each day, ask yourself what filled your cup and what emptied it. That’s it. You’re not trying to fix anything yet. Just start noticing. Awareness is where this starts.
More on this coming in a future paid deep dive. But start with the cup.
In the community this week
omg you guys. 🥹
Someone walked away from cake this week and posted about it like the win it absolutely is. someone else hit her lowest weight yet after four workouts in one week. a member who’s three weeks in is already down 7 pounds. and someone posted that for the first time since upping her dose she woke up without the headache she’d been dreading every injection day.
this is what’s happening in there every single week.
real people. real wins. if you want in it’s part of the paid membership.
one thing I want you to sit with this week
Your cup might just be full.
not your fault. not a sign you’re doing it wrong. just... full.
what’s one thing you could pour out this week?
See you next Tuesday.
nyk
p.s. we are sitting at 102/250 members (at 250 the paid price goes up!)
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YESSS!!! I am experiencing the same thing - my weight loss has totally stalled since December, School doesn't end for me until the end of June - I am hoping that once school is over weight loss will begin again! - congrats to you